Sunday, February 13, 2011

What an honor

I was notified tonight by an amazing, courageous, grace filled, Godly women, who will soon be saying goodbye to her husband. Tomorrow marks what could be the last day outside of the hospital, and they have planned a family day that includes just being together, enjoying each other, and surprisingly it includes being behind my camera. What an honor it is, what a joy it is, what a complete miracle it is that God has given me something I can share with others that might somehow ease the pain. I am having a hard time with this tonight because of the awesome responsibility it is- Oh Lord I pray I can give them what they dream of, what they had in-visioned, and what the Lord put in my head as a vision. I couldn't help but notice the timing of this, the day before Valentine's Day. I typically think that this holiday is such a marketing, Hallmark, and flower shop's dream. And really always just went with the flow. But this year, I am looking at it so differently. My heart breaks as I try to even remotely come close to being able to come up with what our last family day would be with our daddy. If you have ever taken anything from my blog postings take this: please, let your spouse know how much you love them, let your kids see you love your spouse, let your family know that any day could be the last. I know in my life there isn't a day that goes by that I think to my self, "I blessed" I pray that all of you find what you have been blessed with and the Lord continues to show you in your life all that you have, so one day you are not wondering "Why am I here? Why am I married to this person? How did I get to this point?" I think if we look at our lives everyday and see the gratefulness in it, we will not get to the point of disconnect, of lost, of lonely.


Thank you Lord first for blessing me with the most amazing man on earth. I couldn't live with out him, he is my rock, he is my best friend, he is my inspiration, and most importantly he is the father of my three wonderful children. Thank you for choosing me for his soul mate. I am honored, blessed, and I will cherish this opportunity. Thank you also Lord for the talent you have trusted me with, I pray that everyone finds their talent in their lives, how they can witness, how they can bless, and how they can be who You need them to be. Please do not let tomorrow be about me, please let your grace, your glory, and your hands pour out the love that can give this family what they need. Lord use me to touch their lives.

I hope a step into my life tonight shows so many of you what an absolute honor I think it is to be in the Lords will, to follow His lead, go with His direction, and to trust what he puts in our path. I will be the first to admit if I worry about this, stress about this, I may ruin what plans the Lord has for us, so I am going to let go of my feelings and let God run the show. Honestly my heart wants to ache, wants to question, and wants to worry, but trusting in His plan is hanging on the the hope He promises us. Thank you all who follow, read, trust and believe. I believe the Lord is wanting to use each and everyone of you as well, if you will let him. Bless you all. Amy